my heart still beating . . .

thisasianlovesu @ 2007-02-28T23:31:00

2007-03-01T07:32:46Z

i totally forgot that this even existed. i love my michael l. tran <3

thisasianlovesu @ 2006-01-31T19:13:00

2006-02-01T03:14:31Z

JUST A LITTLE REMINDER
THIS-ASIAN-LOVES-U

yea, bye

yea, im totally 17

2006-01-16T23:17:34Z

i basically have the bestest friends ever and i love every single one of them.

good birthday and good friggin weekend ♥

here's something for you

2005-12-18T02:34:58Z

umm basically im so friggin sick right now that u can barely think striaght...im just friggin glad right now that its christmas vacation and that this week is friggin over with.

sad part is that i lost the civil war horribly in coach line's class. grrrr, i almost cried. it was terrible. i got a 74% on my anatomy midterm.. which isnt horrible, but defiently isnt great. my marriage booklet basically owned everyone else's.. (of course)...i spent a lot of money on my friends.. but in return got alot of stuff back, but whatever i love my friends more then my life.

im totally hating my hair lately. and i recently announced that im growing it out.. finally.

and i watched harry potter and the goblet of fire 7 times... and if u want to see it with me i would be happy to cuz i still have another free tickets.

o, and im bascialy getting everything i want and more for christmas.. cuz im the biggest friggin spoiled brat imaginable.. yea i know.. whatev

happy bday steffy pad.

ooo baby, you tease me

yea so, these are my friends.

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-10-11T22:25:00

2005-10-12T05:29:01Z

ok so, homecoming was prty fun. lauren steere is like the best dance partner to ever have EVER. lol

RED BULL GIVES YOU WINGS!!!! (true story)

life is a bitch, mostly cuz i hate losing

he's really cute, but weird. ;]

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-09-11T22:04:00

2005-09-12T05:07:31Z

so basically i cant decide what mood im in. just dont mess with me.

we won our first game, woohoo.

ok so enjoy these bitches.

my friends named me #1 asian, sry kids.

SLUT CREW

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-08-23T13:29:00

2005-08-23T20:41:43Z

SO LONG SWEET SUMMER

summer flings are over

and....

no more all-nighters

no more sneaking INTO my room ;]

no more talking on the phone `til 6 AM

no more sitting in front of the t.v. for 21340973460 hours

no more late night trips to dennys

no more, no homework. lol

no more hanging out at random places and doing nothing for like 10 hrs

(uh, like im still not going to do any of this stuff, yea right)

but, there are things to look forward for!

seeing all my friends who didnt bother calling me to hang out this summer.. lol jk ;]

volleyball season ♥

umm, thats about it.

p.s. i need a haircut thanks. and i would post pics and stuff, but im too lazy and tired. goodbye

see you in school kids!

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-08-07T13:59:00

2005-08-07T21:02:59Z

♥

summer is suddenly getting ten times better <33

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-07-19T17:43:00

2005-07-20T00:56:15Z

i finished it. it was rather horrible. the writing was ingenious, but the ending was WAY too sad. of course im not going to say anything.. dont want anyone to kill themselves over a lil spoiler.. LOL

but now, we must now wait for this.....

please dont not mock me ;]

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-07-11T18:20:00

2005-07-12T01:23:39Z

i make a big deal out of everything

o, what would i do without my friends.
i saw kacie today, and THAT was the highlight of my day. =]

uh. whos ready for harry potter weekend? i think i am.... =]
im a nerd and i dont care.

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-06-29T00:48:00

2005-06-29T07:51:04Z

i hate being stranded in simi valley, some one come and save me.

call me if u have any decency.......

o, how much i long for a car right now.

i knew you would come around.... =']

bring it friggin on.

2005-06-15T02:28:57Z

summer has finally started

i hate the weather and the unattractive tan lines, but i need this.

this year has been one of the worst, but i do say that every year.

i changed, even though you havent.

it has nothing to do with you, what-so-ever

you cant depend on one person to be there for u always

(but i thought i could)

this time i will hang out with everyone (if they call me of course)

so call me lame-os

and you think ur friggin cool. ;]

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-05-15T14:37:00

2005-05-15T21:43:44Z

i have come to the conclusion that volleyball guys are the hottest ones ever

ur strange if u think otherwise, or maybe im just weird.

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-05-02T00:32:00

2005-05-02T07:39:16Z

i wish i could drive more, i dont think my parents like me that much =/

and i totally regret not going to all the boys vball games. man, am i going to miss them. =/

he's acting like a retard and i could care less.

i really need to go shopping, i need/want black chucks. i love those shoes more than my life!

who wants to go shopping with me? i can totally give you a ride.

i got a new bed and closet. i cleaned like no other though, my room is like brand new. hopefully i can start remodeling it.

i come to the conclusion that tillys is a huge RIP-OFF and i can find clothing like that else where for like $10 cheaper. (true story)

i finally turned in my reregistrations forms on friday, so for sure im coming back next yr. yea man! sorry if i freaked u out by saying i might not come back next yr. =/

i really want to go to more concert/shows. especially ones with jillian wong and joanna tengco. =]

that reminds me, the starting line and fall out boy cd is coming out and i really just cant wait.

before i forget, alfredo saved my life, thanks again. i wouldnt have done it without you!

oo yea, anthony velarde ruined my life for the night, and he knows why.

whatever, happy birthday loser. grrr. lol ;]

well im done. i conclude this boring msg with some pictures that i love o so much. some old, some new.

me and ho <33

my dog has pink hair. LMAO

and so does my stupid/loser sister. no, we're not twins.

i love these ppl more than my life. really, i do. ♥

love

fun friggin times.
(i didnt jump in the pool, thank God. i'm so bad. =/)

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-04-14T23:14:00

2005-04-15T06:25:26Z

i knew at least i might just have a chance, to catch a shooting star

i confuse myself all the time.

too bad, im too tired to care

early morning conditioning sucks, but i still like it.

things that used to stress me out, dont stress me out anymore. (this is good)

i complain too much and im too moody lately..i need sleep,

GOOD NIGHT

too lazy to post up any pics.

but here...

i ♥ my best friends more than my life!

spring break '05

2005-04-04T06:16:03Z

it's just ur typical spring break

filled with:

best friends ♥

fun times

skinny dipping

drinks

parties

getting home in the middle of the night

grounded

boys

drama, drama, and drama

staying up `til 5 AM

watching movies

shopping

adventures in my bro's car

tacos

music

long romantic walks

dancing

crying

laughing

doesn't matter, its all over. school tomorrow bleh.. =/

ill update with pics soon.

LICENSED TO DRIVE

2005-03-26T07:49:02Z

i got my license. =]

i been hanging nonstop with my best friend christina. its friggin awesome. we took so many pictures.. its insane. well today was... uh... fun. LOL. im so happy i have my license. and im so happy its srping break.. theres so much to do. i want to hang out with all my friends!! i love you guysss! =]

♥♥♥♥♥

=]

2005-03-22T02:19:26Z

life is getting so much better....

SCHOOL i do ALOT better in school.. it may not show alot in my grades, but im really trying way harder then las yr.. i actually care and i love it. nothing feels better than getting a good grade on a big test.. chem is still friggin killing me but im slowing getting it.. ON MY OWN and NOT with neone help. alg II is getting WAY easy. i love learning about WWII and english is just FUN. ms. leslee 1st period class is the friggin best. school is just WAY better now that i actually care

FRIENDS i'm learning that getting new friends doesnt always mean that you can't stay friends with ur old ones. right now, i love evry single one of my friends and i learning to be good friend to everyone. =]

FAMILY i'm getting in less and less fights with my parents.. yea.. an occasional one .. but its not constantly everyday like it used to be.. i learned that i have to change my attitude. so yea. if i give respect, ill get respect.

BOYS i seriously think giving up boys for lent was a good idea. it might seem a little silly, but it let me focus on WAY better things. i love it. lol =]

VOLLEYBALL i accepted the fact that my team is currently on a losing streak and that we really have to work hard if we want to get back to where we were. i <3 them none the less. =]

ok, so everyone PRAY that i pass my driving test on friday. u all know when it is so if i fail everyone will know cuz i DONT have my license. LOL.

i have so many pictures i havent posted up yet.. how sad!

SAN DIEGO + MY SISTER CHRISTINA CHAVEZ + OLD HAIRY FAT MAN + HOT TUB = GOOD TIMES.

brittany's sweet sixteen!
ISN'T SHE FRIGGIN GORGEOUS!!
haha i have my asian face on. ;]

i <3 these girls

i apologize ms. shideh for my terrible photo taking skills. lol

carissa, i think ur picture turned out better. lol i love u gorgeous

HOLLYY!!!

chauntell is GORGEOUS!! <33

i look retarded, but i love jessica anyways. LOL

alexis is gorgeous, everyone knows that! lol

2 words: BGF and ASIAN

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-03-02T22:39:00

2005-03-03T06:47:01Z

everyone just seems so down and stressed out of a sudden. i try to smile. dont say that i dont, but i seriously dont know what is wrong with me. there is only one person that will ever understand me. and that is my best friend christina. nothing even big happened recently..nothing to be all down and depressed about it. except my grades are friggin crap even though im actually trying, but my mind is always somewhere else. every single lil thing pisses me off so bad and i just cant help but break down. there is just a select few that truly make me happy right now, the people that help me keep on going. you know who you are and i love you with the deepest of my heart. i kind of freaked out today on a couple ppl today and im sry for my attitude. and dont even say "its a girl thing".....cuz thats is such bullshit. why would ppl bugg me when im already in a bad mood. some ppl dont have common sense. well i came home today and just ate, ate, and ate... even though im supposed to be on a diet. i cried over stupid shows....honestly, its just one of those times i want to be left alone. thanks friends for the times that you supported me. hopefully, ill be my old self again. the one you used to know. i love you guys

i just miss my old smile

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-02-12T12:59:00

2005-02-12T21:17:45Z

I LOVE THE RAIN SO MUCH!
its a drug. my addiction, my obsession <33

i got even more sick. great.
oo well, rain is too good to put to waste

yesterday was fun! well at school i had a really bad day. dont want to talk about it =/. well neways after school my sister got my western bagel. oo man i love that stuff. after that we went home to get changed and stuff cuz we were both soaked. then we went to payless to find some rainboots, but noooo they didnt have ne .. cheap asses. LOL. then we went to the t.o. mall.. man that is the best mall friggin ever... hahaha advantanges of living in simi. LOL i love it <33. well i bought some stuff with the giftcards i had frm pac sun. oo man they had so many cute clothes. i love that store. urban outfitters had the cutest skirt ever and im so getting it when i get enough money.. also, i saw the hottest belt ever imaginable. im so getting it. no doubt. LOL. i hate not having enough money. grrr..whatever. neways, after that i got my jamga juice and then we looked at IG. oo gsh, that store rocks. =]. the cool thing about that store is that no one will ever have ne of those clothes in there so i have to shop there for now on. LOL. and they always have new things everytime i go there. then we watched hitch. i love it, but it makes you want to fall in love. and ew... wouldnt that be stupid. well that was it. =]

valentine's day is coming up, how retarded will that be. lol ;]

status on my license: i have no idea when im going to get it, but i will soon dont wry ;]
either this month, or march =]

"jenny, when are you going to post on the pics on ur lj?"
right now. =]

my footprints will never be alone <33

over 25 pics. =]

white girls know how to party

sex on the beach. yum =P

sluts <33

the limo was sweeettt

love

i love katie's wet hair look

best friend. =]

lauren friggin steere. o man, shes hott

kiss me gorgeous

bump and grind. LOL

wtheck sarah? lol

kind of sexy!! lol

woooo baby ;]

this is only time my footprints will be alone =]

i love the sound of the waves<33

the lil girl with the flashlight getting raped. LMAO

hey! i want some of that!

i love my kacie metcalf <33

its like laguna beach? wtheck is that? ;]

RAWR!!!

the non cool table ;]

group photo

this guy is hott! <33

ho!!!

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-02-08T17:49:00

2005-02-09T01:48:25Z

i erased your name
pictures all thrown away
its easier this way

things were good
i never should have been so scared
to be so happy
never thought i could i would have never
thought i'd feel this way

are you my friend
to me ive lost my friend
i could have said some things that isnt fair
your the text inside my book
that isnt there anymore
are you my friend?

i called you yesterday
i called you like a month ago to say im sorry
the times i talked to you before the time
it never was you

are you my friend
to me ive lost my friend
i could have said some things that wasnt fair
your the text inside my book
that isnt there anymore
are you my friend
to me ive lost my friend
i could have said something that ill regret
all the lyrics on the blank cd
youll get from me
to you my friend
- NEVER HEARD OF IT

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-02-01T23:48:00

2005-02-02T07:54:19Z

i ended up not going to formal. oo well =] im going crazy!!!! just do this one thing for me, and that is . . . never change i need to change my look again, im bored with my current one. lol

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-01-19T22:45:00

2005-01-20T06:55:21Z

wow, i feel so much better. =]

ok, so im not going to winter formal. so please
NO ONE MAKE ME GO!
i bet you anything, im going to end up going anyways. hey it might be fun to actually go with just a friend. lol =]

i want to be a cool person. i want to be a cool person with a license.

finals can suck small asian dick. its too bad that i dont care as much as some ppl. who cares if its 10% of my grade. whatever. LOL

my new layout sucks. i just want to change the stupid rudolph one. im so weird...

life is so BLAH.

boys like you, get what they deserve
boys like you, should write a book on how to make grls cry

i love you

yes, we are sisters <33

what nerds.

cute.

♥♥♥♥♥

IT MY BIRTHDAY!!

2005-01-13T05:13:08Z

its my 16th birthday everyone!!! =]

i have the bestest friends in the world. and i love them soo friggin much.

well my birthday started when my besterest friend in the whole friggin world called me @ 12:00 AM. i love christina isidro, i wouldnt be the same person without her. about 5 seconds later my cool friend ansley sang happy birthday on my voicemail!! omgsh, he's so friggin awesomeeeeee!!! sorry you werent the first one lol .. so i cant sleep now cuz im SOOO friggin excitied for when i get to school so i go online and then like 7 ppl IMed me saying happy birthday. my phone was ringing non-stop but i wanted to go to sleep. i finally fell asleep and woke up in the morning, did my hair and make-up all prty, wore my new eskimo jacket and then i was READYYY!! then my brother rodney was being nice for a change and got me starbucks!!! then i finally go to school. my first birthday gift i received was from no other but my sarah fern!! she bake me an awesome cake that i absolutely adore!!! then jillian wong surpises me with some balloons...gsh i love my other half so much!! =] .. then my sara jane made me this awesome card that i absolutely love over alll my birthday cards cuz it just friggin rocks!!! then ansley gives me the zoolander dvd. only my favorite movie of all friggin timeee!! then troy and kevin munoz start handing me money.. thanks guys LOL.. then i finally see my kacie metcalf .. omgsh i love that grl so insanely .. lol .. kacie and cindy made this AWESOME cake that i loved.. and they also baked me cookies AND got me balloons... omgsh i love them so much .. oo wait .. they also got me STARBUCKSSSS!!! they are bestest friends EVERRR!! janie made me an awesome cake too!! omgsh its sooo good!! i love you janieee!! =] .. then i get to homeroom and my jackie gave me my gift. gsh, she's just too sweet for words. =] thanks jackieee!! also thanks to my lisa, lauren tiomico, and alyssa for the gifts. i seriously love you guys will all my heart <33... also my best friend anthony velarde FINALLY gave me my christmas/birthday gift. gsh i love him!!! =] .. then after school my sister steffy OFFERED to pick me up.. thats a big deal for her.. LOL .. she took me to tillys to buy me my present .. too bad there was like NOTHING there.. lol .. i love my sister, shes one of my best friends....i can tell her absolutely anything!!! so she took me jamba juice then i went home to find balloons and a card from my parents =] .. that was sweet... then i went to practice .. i love volleyball, i dont even mind going to practice LOL.. my mommy picked me up and then we went to chili's and i got my baby back ribs!!!!! the stupid people didnt even sing to me.. LOL whatever...went home and now im hereeee and my family sang to me and gave me the traditional ice cream cake that i love!!! if ur wondering what i got from my parents .. i got a laker game (more like a kobe bryant game. lol) from my daddy. and my mommy is taking me on a MAD shopping spree!!! hehehe ... i checked my voicemails when i got home and i got the sweetest one from selyna .. gsh, she sang me happy birthday with her hott sexy voice... OMGSH SHE ROCKSSS!!! i got many, many moreeee... i got ALOT of txts, voicemails, greetings, huggs, kisses, calls, and IMs... and i couldnt possibility name all the ppl who made this day so awesome for me .. but u know who u are and i friggin love you!!!! .. i seriously felt so loved and so special and i thank all my friends and family for this...

i cant wait until i get my friggin license. lol
i actually FEEL 16, its weird. =]

and NO ONE can ruin this PERFECT day. =]

MY BIRTHDAY CAKESSSS!!!

my ice cream cake from my family

janie's wonderful cake =]

sarah fern's cake. i love herrr!!

kacie and cindy's cake. my FAVORITEEE!!

BALLOONS!!!

me blowing out my cake

me and my best friend KACIEEE!!

i love these girls...

me and jackieee!!

my new car, lol j/k!!! but its my family's new car. LOL i know u guys love it as much as i do!! lol its a SLK 350 if ur wondering =]

me and my besterest friend!!!

this awesome carl's jr i saw .. lol

coach brad. he's my hero. LOL yea righttt!!!

thisasianlovesu @ 2005-01-01T15:30:00

2005-01-01T23:36:56Z

HAPPY NEW YEAR COOL KIDS!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!

New Years Resolutions
1. WAY better grades!
2. lose 10 lbs. =X
3. get my license in february!! WOOOOOO!!!
4. see more concerts
5. hang out more with old friends
6. meet new bomb-ass friends =]
7. less hate, MORE LOVE
8. be WAY less asian (thank you christina chavez. LOL)
9. forgive, dont forget just remember.....then LET GO..........
10. have an atitude adjustment!!! HAHAHA
11. be less boy crazy. LOL
12. just be an all-around better person =]

2004....lots of memories. the ups and downs will not be forgotten. goodbye 2004!

yesterday i went to christina's lil family party thing. it was interesting. lol.

i miss my friends. i didnt get to hang out with EVERYONE. me mad .. =/
i miss volleyball too. i cant stand going 2 weeks without it. LOL ..

it just takes some time, little girl ur in the middle, it'll up the ride.
everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.
hey, u know they're all the same.
u know ur doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
live right now.
yea, just be yourself.
it doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.

the middle - jimmy eat world

"you were everything, everything that i wanted. we were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it. all these memories so close to me, just fade away."